closure
I recently read a blog where someone wrote about having
a hard time feeling accomplished after doing creative or
any other things in their life. I found this to be a relatable
feeling. Time seems to flow in a quick and mundane way where I
kind of lose track of what is happening. Sure, I keep in touch
with friends and family, go out to events, write and record
music, learn more about Linux, and work 30 hours a week.
I still feel that I do not accomplish much and time slips away
from me. There are still things I put off and so many thoughts
that wriggle in my brain. Where am I going with this? I am trying to
find ways of creating closure. One way I can at least keep track
of what has happened is through spreadsheets tracking games I've
played, books I've read, movies I've watched, and events I've gone
to, along with special events like friends visiting or trips I've
taken. I still have more to do however.
I am considering putting together a photo journal and maybe making a zine
of pictures, drawings, and thoughts throughout the year, then having a physical
print out for each year. I also put together a collection of music
I created within the past ten years or so. I am looking at closing
some of these open ends in my life, allowing me to focus on new ideas
or just "being" in the present.